Thoughts on a Friday

• My kitchen remodel is still in progress and that's ok since I know it will be done eventually and it's been a good lesson in patience, but I realized last night just how much I miss cooking. At first it was kind of nice to be forced to take some time from it, but I'm very much looking forward to it again. 

• Cooking in my new kitchen is going to be so fantastic. 

• Another good lesson I should share is that in life one must always remember to check out what exactly is inside the boxes of the product you're picking up from the factory. If I hadn't done so yesterday I would have had to take another trip out to the suburbs to pick up the right floor tile. 

• I told the guy it wasn't right and he just ran his hand slowly over the wrong tile and gazed at it like I might suddenly agree that this was right and I had decided on tile that looked like a reptiles back. Or change my mind and take that instead to save him a trip. It took everything I had in me not to say "No, I know this is wrong because it is ugly and the tile I ordered is pretty." Instead I just sorta starred at him as nicely as I could muster until he went back and got the right boxes.

• I took the night off from house projects last night and just watched a movie with King on my laptop on the bed since the tv isn't hooked up yet. It was pretty great.

• Lately I keep remembering a conversation I had with a friend way back after the holiday season. I was telling her how I'd started looking at houses and how it was exciting and terrifying and she was telling me about her frustrations with trying to get pregnant. It was cold out and dark and we were both in such an uncomfortable place. When I look at us now, me unpacking my new house with the sun streaming in every window and her with her baby bump growing everyday, it makes me smile inside. And reminds me of that fantastic Rilke quote I'm sure I've mentioned here before,

"I beg you, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer."

How funny when you take note one day and think "Well what do you know, I lived my way into the answer... well, that answer anyway..." 

:)